From the recording Out of the Dark

Lyrics

I keep checking the phone wondering where I went wrong
And how long you'll be gone this time
Try to remember what I did or didn't do
Either way, either way I lose

Who do you need me to be
For you to stay with me
I try to hard to be somebody else
All I can manage is this
Bad version of myself

I send you one more text
Even though I know it'll go unread
And I regret it each time I hit send
I want so badly to be strong
But I"m tired of being strung along
So why am I crying here because you're gone

Who do you need me to be
For you to stay with me
I try so hard to be somebody else
All I can manage is this
Bad version of myself

I don't wanna act this way
Feel like I have to change
Why do I care what you have to say?
Maybe someday I'll be strong
Figure out how to get along without you
You can be so cruel

I shouldn't keep chasing you
But it's hard to know what's true
When my mind is clouded by lies
For now I'll just keep on this way
Hoping for the day when I'll see you
For who you really are

You twist reality
Manipulate what I see
So I believe I can only be this
Bad version of myself